So here I am - it's 9:30am and its yet another day with the same outcome (Already!)
Yesterday morning we got a phone call that my Uncle M passed away. My mouth dropped in shock and I haven't gotten over that feeling since. He was an amazing man, the kindest man I think I have ever met. It's hard to believe that he isn't just "over the pond" at home sitting drinking his tea. To show you the kind of man he is .... Last week my parents went away and when they got home Uncle M had put new wood floors down in the house for them, cut down a tree and mowed the backyard. He was always showing up with his tools to do little odds and ends for them and my daddy loved it. He had missed his family so much and now that he was back with them he enjoyed every minute of it. I had to leave work early as I couldn't concentrate on anything but my godfather not being in this world anymore...to add to that I am feeling very alone on this side of the pond. Death has a way of making every mile that you are away seem that much longer.
This morning I got other news... not very happy news and it will make life so much more difficult ( I will discuss that at another time.) It seems as though once we get ahead everything comes crashing down again. I was already very stressed riding into work this morning and then bam I get hit with it. I don't know if its because I am pregnant or not but I go from being extremely angry to extremely sad... life just isn't fair sometimes.
As much as I am sad I thank God everyday for the beautiful baby he has given me and blessed me with another one on the way. Peanut is just such a precious little girl and makes me smile every time I see her. I will hold onto that today as I try to get through yet another rough patch... I think its about time that it ends.
